Return to yourself!

I can't help but smile at the way things are moving at my end. Whatever I will continue my journey with myself. Its strange, how much I am liking to help someone. I must say atleast you are trying. The way you have chosen is not easy, but I can see in your eyes, the spirit to fight, the spirit to change. You have been true to me since beginning, and I respect you for that. Although US is again not the best place to practice certain things, but I will be with you, in your quest.While replying to your mails, I was recollecting certain things, which I forgot almost. And now those things give me strength again. Infact it brings me back to certain things, from which I went away. But those experiences will help me to see things in new light, and so should yours.
And few words for some people, who are helpless to handle themselves. Just look back once at your history..and see how quickly it keeps on repeating. How much time will you take, to come out of this viscious circle? Very soon you will run out of your excuses, your decisions, your judgements..The emptiness you are trying to fill, will keep on widening..Just see, if you can return to yourself..I will be a really happy man..I know these words are useless for you..Still though I am helpless, I can't care any less..
And a clarity, you were seeking from me. Yes, your existance to me stays important..and it ends there. I would like to write new chapters, may be better ones. I have new things to work on. But I wish you all the luck for future. Shine as bright as you can!!

I am about to leave office now..to go back home..on my way I will think about many things..things which started since my childhood..my upbringing..my rebellion..my education..my spirituality..my love..my hate..my anger..my forgiveness..my losses..my wins..few good people..some cheats..but I thank everyone..for fixing some beliefs..and leaving some open ended thoughts..what ifs..plenty of them..small party later to thank a very special one..and I will pray for your well being later my love..without any ill thoughts..the least I can do for you is that..cheers!

Thanks for the beautiful gift..I am surprised, overwhelmed, and your tears mean a lot to me..I never liked to wear a watch, because didnt want to be confined in time..But I will wear it for the occasion you want me to..you want me to dress up into so much detail..unlike you, I am not into show business..still won't stop you from shopping( mummy don't buy anything before I come)..And in the end, I want people to know who tried comparing you to some cheap hunk..I feel so much grateful for every single moment I spent with you in last three months..your words from last night still echo..'I am giving away a part of my heart...and please don't stop me from making it look like a gem'...

Chill, Relax, Enjoy! Things are getting aligned, in the best possible way. Lets accept our fate, without regret, wishing each other all the best.

Sometime back, I was told, that people walked out with more wisdom..away from me..and I realised what a fool I am..I never move..I never want to be wise leaving people behind feeling stupid..and I realise now all wise men/women returned to me..the wisdom was only needed to know that my stupidity cant be replaced in their lives...I like comparisons..It helps me see how much a person understands me..I thank you for considering me at a higher level..and some one at lower..but frankly had u asked me the same question..my answer would have been..I never felt like evaluating anyone else in your presence (concept of stupid dedication)..and today when all wise people want my stupidity back..they forget water doesnt flow from lower level to higher level...

Be a human first!

Enlightenment..is a very big word..a word people like talking about without knowing what it means..and I am sure, they will keep talking about it, when they want to escape their reality..they want to keep hopping, from one pleasure to another, from carnal orgasm to spiritual orgasm..they neither seek enlightenment..nor they seek love...they want Just the pleasure assosiated in them..we want to please others because internally we want to be pleased..and in the end we realise we stay hollow because pleasure flies away with moments..every two months loyality changes, every week the emotions, a careless jumble of words on emotional upsurge..and smart monkeys waiting everywhere to get you flat with your hormones.. be a human first..may be then you can try for human goals...one of them is enlightenment..

Hoping very best

Yes I am sad for myself. I am in pain. I know, I can't turn back the clock and I know I can't write your future. Believe me, I knew it all. And beleive me, I tried everything going against everything. But I understood my actions only decide my fate. Please feel free to choose what is best for you. If pleasure is your motto, go for it. If lifestyle justifies your age, take it. If lust comes from emotional imbalance, you are treating it well. I will still remain the same, in my own world, hoping the very best for you.