Its been very long since I wrote anything here! Surely because of some emotional reasons. As emotions very often do..make you vulnerable. But I am writing this today because I felt like it, after reading certain things from "the very inspiration" of this blog.
Its a human tendency to desire more..It never stops..We make rules..We break them before we know it..We lie to others..We lie to ourselves..Some choose to live like that..Some just can't..Unfortunately..I can't..
We decide..to get away from loneliness..and very soon we realize..we can never get away from it..Why do we forget..We were born that way..and We will die that way..There is nothing which can help us except ourselves...I have learnt this lesson the hard way..but at least I have learnt it..Unfortunately the kind of place I live in, you can never be lonely in physical terms( I will thank my wonderful friend circle which I avoided..for some selfish reasons)..even in emotional terms (I will thank my wonderful family for that!)..thats why I never have to run around places to seek company..but essentially I am lonely..and no one can help me there..no one! No relationships..no friendships..no words of comfort..I am not hopeless..I am just aware!
I can't help anyone..Its beyond my capabilities..Its beyond anyones capabilities..so lets not assume things which can belittle you later..I even want to refrain from show of that care (only a mother can show it..without seeking anything in return)..because that makes people dependent..which I don't want people to be around me..Its too much responsibility..and useless at the end of the day..So what can I offer..just the sincerity towards everyone who believes my presence brings comfort to them..till the time they realize..they can get it even without me..This is such a pleasant state of mind..it makes me feel so close to myself..
Some new developments are round the corner..it won't change anything(nothing can!)..
Wishing you all peace in your lives..your peace will bring peace to me as well..Lets not look back too much..lets not leap too forward in future..
Seldom one comes across places where you can share you intimate feelings with so much ease. Sometimes as an emotional vent, sometimes the thoughts you want to share, sometimes just for nothing. The name I have chosen because there is certain amount of freedom attached with it, certain amount of your willingness to touch the heights, and offcourse for some reasons Swans have always attracted me for their ability to fly in flocks as well as solitude.
